Hello blog readers.
At the moment I am writing this from my university dorm room. I have been at uni for a little over a couple of months at the moment. It has been a very mad couple of months! At first I was very overwhelmed with the idea of being here and found it all too overwhelming - the mad partying and alcohol fuelled nights are very different to the slow "getting myself together" year I had filled with yoga and eating right etc etc. I suddenly felt a bit out of control.
But I am learning as time has progressed that I CAN handle it, even if it is tricky or i'm not doing as much as I think I SHOULD be doing I AM here. And that in itself is a massive achievement. I need to remind my ego sometimes to just hush for a little while.
So I am finding I am managing to find a balance to my day, getting enough rest to go out some nights, and other nights REALLY needing to stay in. And yes it is frustrating and I do cry, but that's ok. I just let myself feel the pain and the emotion and enjoy what I can of the next day.
My ultimate quest is to find balance and peace within myself, gaining all of my energy back. I know this will take patience and determination, but somehow I feel I am nearly there.
I am reminding myself that sitting back and doing things slowly is ok. There is no need to rush.
I found this music on youtube which is so relaxing, I recommend you give it a listen:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lwzek1Dau78
Peace and love to you all.
